Growth is painful. Change is painful. But nothing is as painful as staying stuck where you do not belong. N. R. Narayana Murthy
Today is the last day of the year, so I am taking the time to reflect, say farewell to 2018 and welcome the new year.
2018 was overall a good year. If I had to summarise it in one word, I would describe it as a year of change. This year, I changed from being emotionally dependent on him to being completely indifferent to him and his appalling manipulations. It was the year I said NO MORE to Narcissistic Abuse. It was the year I reclaimed my life! The transition was tough, but it was worth the effort, the pain and the tears.
Now that I am free, I am making many new plans for the coming year.
I have decided that 2019 is going to be the year of growth and self-improvement. I am going to challenge myself mentally, intellectually and physically. Being able to think about MY future and make projects for MYSELF is an incredible sensation. Not so long ago, everything revolved around HIM, HIS future, HIS projects. Now, It is all about ME!
I have set myself a few goals for 2019.
- I am going to train in the gym three times a week to increase my strength.
- I am going to attend all dragon boat races of the season and hopefully win the British league again!
- I am going to lose at least 5kg by eating regular meals and giving up alcohol.
- I am going to walk the 220 km Stevenson’s Trail in the Cévennes – named after the Scottish poet and novelist Robert Louis Stevenson, author of The Strange Case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde and Travels with a Donkey in the Cévennes.
- I am going to travel to four European capital cities – Maybe Lisbon, Madrid, Berlin, and Krakow depending on the price!
- I am going to make more time for my friends and organise at least four dinner parties in the year to sample the French menus from my French language and culture website.
- I am going to pass the Level 1 Google Educator Certificate – It is a requirement for my job, so I don’t really have a choice here, but I like the challenge.
- I am going to finish my Diploma in Personal Performance Coaching – or at least work towards finishing it!
- I am going to raise awareness of Narcissistic Abuse by blogging regularly and organising an event on 1st June, World Narcissistic Abuse Awareness Day.
- I am going to leave the past behind and thrive!
Without a narcissist to dampen my mood, sabotage my efforts and underplay my achievements, the future looks promising. This new year, I am going to use my experience of Narcissistic Abuse to grow and become a more resilient, self-assured and perceptive person.
There is light after darkness.
There is hope after despair.
There is life after Narcissistic Abuse!
I wish you all a very happy new year 2019!